HONESTLY; confessions, ramblings of identifying things in my life,

Honestly the Covid19 times, I find myself interesting, when I can stop vacuming where ever and have no concern that the Vacume will stay right there where I stopped as no one but me will know-pretty wild ūüôā

Honestly, I find it uncomfortable to be living among such hate. Even after I try to study and see why they have their such different point of view, no honor or respect for others. I come to this bottom line anyone carrying a semi-automatic gun in public and is not currently in the Military is just WRONG!!

Honestly, I find so much comfort for myself in my morning shower, years now I have used that time to quiet my mind and speak gratitudes then stretch.¬†Simply in just a child’s posse, I feel I am not going to shrink like many (LOL) while I feel my spine stretch and regain my height.

Honestly I do not remember thinking about what I wanted to do in 2020 or that I would even be here-LIFE!!!

Honestly, I was just thinking how on a “social media page” someone posts something that would not be considered a “current event” or out dated if you feel this is wrong as some do. Possibly think of it as happy for that person who posted it as it may just now resonated for them, hopefully, and motivated them to share because they really saw it, felt it or read it. Knowledge is good, no matter what the date.

Honestly, I have pretty much confirmed while living with just myself, that someone telling me what to do is a physical trigger. I feel this kinda wall of resist and thoughts like who are you to tell me. Pretty arrogant I think. But it is there. In more thought, my husband never really told me what to do, if I asked he would say how he might do it. Other times he would ask what I am thinking would work-so kind. One of the things I have tried to keep of him.
For this, I have been letting go of what I think you ought to do unless you ask. The longer I have worked at this practice the more it shows me that resisting wall I feel even clearer. So I say ” hi old reaction. I do not want to do it this way anymore, thank you” and send it away. Because I think these ways I choose not to use anymore hideout inside me when I send them away. I enjoy ways of moving energy, acupuncture, chakra cleansing, ceremonial Moon fire, with intention I feel better, always lighter.

I had a thought today; how wonderous a meeting of minds must be if achieved. With so many obstacles like individual perceptions, assumptions, interpretations, life influences in our selective hearing, my gosh it is hard to believe it can sincerely happen.

So “the little things” When making dinner last night I took the older loaves of bread from the cabinet using the heals for garlic toast and thought in the morning I would use the stale slices for French¬†toast. I felt so capable¬†and accomplished¬†that I was making use of these¬†older loaves of bread, it felt good. ¬†Then I forgot the toast in the oven and it burned beyond eatable. Going to go make the french toast now wish me luck ūüôā

Honestly, the selfies on dating sites are pretty entertaining. I personally have a hard time taking them so it is amusing to see other choices of themselves.

Honestly, Have you identified in yourself how you are truly capable of hearing what you want to hear?  Not what the person speaking meant to be heard? It is amazing how it happens so easy to go unnoticed. Life in our human bodies definitively can not all be learned in one lifetime unless you were as dedicated as a Monk, you think?

Honestly funny or not. As I drive north out of town passing the Commerce I feel this urge of emotions of getting ready to be angry at whoever chooses to change lanes to be in front of me. I know as we go under the train bridge and into the curve to the right over Sand Creek I just know that they will slow down on the curve. ¬†I then allow myself these emotions of anger that they would do this so often. “WHY MUST THEY PULL IN FRONT OF ME ANd SLOW DOWN BELOW 35, WHY!!!! ” Well in my own self analyzation I have decided that since in my years here I have come to believe life has its balances. Since I have so little anger in my life these days this must be my need to express my anger without harming others. It may also be my old habit of “why Me” needs. “LIFE” My honest rationalization to serve me.
Honestly, I do not understand how people can be comfortable with their choice to; wear sweat pants in public, cut in ahead of others in a line, be dishonest, not do as they agreed to do, disrespect their fellow humans, hang those smelly tree things from their mirror polluting their cars indoor air instead of just cleaning, waste their power as a consumer choosing to support unhealthy processed foods, speak and act unkindly to their fellow human, your thoughts?
Honestly,  the way our socielty chooses to process someone who has died is not enough and sadly seems to set many up for denial of the event. I would like to see more involvement. Once I observed some daughters when their Mother died at home. They did not call right away for her body to be picked up but instead gatered together around their Mother rubbing her down with oils and prayers for her assention to her next journey. To me this was beautiful and aided both in their furture to process. Another time I experienced I family loss where the family gathered together for days comforting each other with stories, foods, drink, touch, music, crying, laughter even this went on for days and nights. I am glad to see Celebrations of life being done more often. Just seems apportiate to celebrate the life of the love one that has move on, sharing with each other the gifts each will hold now in their hearts. Every person is in our life for a reason I do believe.

HONESTLY…¬†confessions of the challenges of making changes in your life-hopefully a bit humorous.